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How does one find the strength to confront a past filled with unimaginable pain and emerge stronger on the other side? This week, we welcome back Ashley for a poignant and courageous follow-up to her previous appearance. She shares the haunting reality of her 20-year journey through sexual abuse at the hands of her father, the hidden pregnancy and abortion that ensued, and the shattering discovery of her mother's involvement. Ashley's story sheds light on the generational trauma within her family, revealing that her father's sister endured similar abuse, and highlights the complex dynamics of familial relationships marred by such experiences.

Ashley takes us through the emotional struggles of a young child feeling unseen and unheard, culminating in a suicide attempt at just five years old. We explore how early counseling attempts were sabotaged by parental manipulation, further compounding her isolation and despair. In the midst of this darkness, music became a fleeting sanctuary, offering her an emotional release from the chaos at home. Her narrative underscores the incredible resilience it takes for survivors to protect loved ones, often at great personal cost.

Faith, therapy, and self-love play pivotal roles in Ashley's healing journey. She opens up about maintaining unwavering faith despite her circumstances, grappling with forgiveness, and finding peace after a tumultuous past. Discover the transformative power of self-worth and positive self-talk as Ashley shares her inspiring turnaround, marked by significant weight loss and a renewed mindset. Her story is a testament to hope and resilience, illustrating that even the darkest times can lead to profound healing and a brighter future.

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What if you had to navigate a childhood filled with unimaginable trauma while finding solace in the simplest of moments? Join us as we sit down with Ashley, a survivor whose story will leave you both heartbroken and deeply inspired. From her early life in Gresham and Boring, Oregon, to her profound connection with animals, Ashley opens up about the complexities of her family dynamics, her father's injury during Operation Desert Storm, and the conflicting emotions she faced growing up.

Ashley shares the harrowing details of her prolonged sexual abuse at the hands of her father, starting as early as age three. Her narrative takes us through poignant and painful memories, from standing for a kindergarten photo to the torment of her birthdays, and the daily struggle to maintain any semblance of normalcy. She bravely recounts the journey of seeking justice, the emotional turmoil of disclosing the abuse, and the inner conflict of protecting potential victims while confronting her abuser. Each chapter of her story reveals the incredible resilience she demonstrated in the face of overwhelming adversity.

This episode provides an unflinching look at the lifelong impact of childhood trauma and the arduous path to healing. Ashley discusses the transformative power of therapy, the support systems that helped her through her darkest times, and the empowerment she found in reporting her abuser. Her candidness offers a powerful message about the strength required to face such trauma and the importance of shedding light on these painful truths to pave the way for healing and justice. Tune in to experience a compelling narrative of survival, resilience, and the unyielding quest for justice.

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"Robbery in Progress"...You're Blocks away and see the suspect run from the bank....brown paper bag under his arm and you are in full pursuit! In this episode of Murders to Music, we explore the unpredictable and often humorous scenarios that police officers encounter, along with a detective's journey from the beat to the bandstand. From early drumbeats to live performances, our guest's musical passion gives us a glimpse into the human side behind the badge.

But it's not all about laughs and tunes. We'll also be diving into the profound impact of therapy on personal growth and healing. I share my own transformative experience with EMDR therapy, recounting a session that helped me navigate complex emotions tied to a courtroom ordeal. You'll learn how therapy can be a powerful tool for anyone grappling with trauma, and why seeking help is a vital step toward emotional well-being. Don't forget to reach out with your own stories and questions at murders2music@gmail.com.

As we look ahead, there's a lot more to anticipate. Upcoming episodes will explore the dynamic intersection of faith and law enforcement, introduce a young survivor of trauma, and feature insights from Jeff, my bandmate from Double Down. We'll also delve into support programs for first responders, like the Mighty Oaks and First Responder Resiliency Program, and I'll share my candid experiences on Dateline. Stay tuned for a blend of humor, heartfelt moments, and valuable insights – and remember to rate the show and stay connected!

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Ever wondered how the life of a police officer unfolds after leaving the badge behind? Scott Waldon, a former cop and Drug Recognition Expert, joins us on the Murders to Music Podcast to share his gripping story. From his gritty days as a detective in Oregon to navigating a post-law enforcement world, Scott opens up about the challenges, emotional toll, and invaluable lessons learned on both sides of the thin blue line. This episode starts with a heart-wrenching account of an active shooter incident involving 10 students, setting the stage for a conversation that’s both poignant and eye-opening.

Scott takes us on a journey through his early years, touching on the dynamics of growing up in Oregon and Southern California within a blended family. He recounts his path from a rebellious teenager to a military policeman, and eventually, a dedicated law enforcement officer in small-town Shady Cove. We discuss the unique demands of small-town policing, the impact of supportive leadership, and the often overlooked intricacies of career progression in law enforcement. Scott’s story is one of resilience and adaptability, offering listeners a deep dive into the real-life experiences of a cop transitioning through different phases of law enforcement.

As the conversation progresses, we delve into the intense pressures Scott faced during the turbulent years between 2018 and 2022. From the stress of high-stakes cases to personal struggles with health and family, Scott’s candid reflections shed light on the mental and emotional burdens carried by those in law enforcement. We touch on crucial coping mechanisms, the importance of mental health care, and the need for early intervention. Scott’s journey reminds us all of the critical importance of prioritizing personal well-being and family, especially when navigating the rigors of such a demanding profession. Tune in for an episode filled with raw honesty and invaluable insights from a seasoned law enforcement professional.

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Ever wonder how to navigate the emotional and financial turmoil of transitioning careers? Listen in as I unpack my own journey from law enforcement to an uncertain future, sharing the struggles and epiphanies along the way. Inspired by a touching message from a listener and a soul-searching therapy session, I confront the feelings of inadequacy that come with such a massive life shift. Through a raw and honest conversation with Jon Beal, a former LAPD officer who found hope in faith after immense personal loss, we explore the depths of emotional resilience and the incessant pursuit of validation.

Feeling like you're losing control? You're not alone. This episode lays bare my own battles with anxiety, stress, and the difficulty of surrendering control to a higher power. I delve into the internal conflict between maintaining financial stability and seeking emotional well-being, and how listener feedback has given me the courage to be vulnerable. By sharing these candid reflections, I aim to connect with others facing similar struggles and emphasize the healing power of open dialogue. Join me as I continue to learn, grow, and navigate this challenging yet rewarding path, one step at a time.

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What if resilience could transform unimaginable grief into a powerful story of faith and purpose? This week, we sit down with Jon Beal, a decorated police veteran whose life journey has been shaped by both profound personal losses and extraordinary professional achievements. Raised in Southern California amidst the backdrop of the 1994 Northridge earthquake and a conservative Christian upbringing, John’s early dreams of becoming a musician unexpectedly pivoted towards a career in law enforcement, inspired by a friend's ambition. Jon's narrative highlights his transition from being a music producer to a respected officer, alongside his marriage and the pivotal life events that have redefined his path over the last decade.

Jon doesn't shy away from the heart-wrenching trials he has faced, including the tragic loss of two of his children to the rare genetic disorder LPIN1. He opens up about the emotional and spiritual challenges that come with such devastating grief, detailing how these experiences tested his faith and strained his relationships. Despite these hardships, Jon’s story is one of resilience, offering listeners invaluable insights into balancing the demands of a high-stress career with the responsibilities of being a father. His journey from the depths of despair to rediscovering peace and purpose is a powerful testament to the strength of the human spirit.

Moreover, Jon’s professional journey continues to inspire. His transition from the LAPD to the Gresham Police Department in Oregon, coupled with his passion for drone technology, showcases his innovative contributions to law enforcement. Jon explains how he spearheaded a drone program within his agency, illustrating the transformative power of technology in modern policing. Whether navigating career transitions or coping with familial tragedy, Jon’s experiences underscore the importance of faith, resilience, and continual self-improvement. Join us as we explore these profound lessons and celebrate a story of enduring strength and spiritual growth.

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Can you trust every story you hear about domestic violence? This episode takes you on a journey through one of the most perplexing and intricate cases we've ever encountered, featuring a man named Adam who made relentless calls alleging abuse by his partner. Despite numerous patrol responses finding no evidence, the case was handed over to the detective unit for a deeper look. Join us as we navigate the criteria for identifying the primary physical aggressor in domestic violence situations and uncover the truth behind Adam's repeated allegations, starting with our first meeting and his peculiar appearance.

Adam's story takes an even more bizarre turn when he claims to have been sodomized with a golf club by a younger partner he met online. We dig into the feasibility and plausibility of his account, questioning the physical logistics and coherence of his narrative. Through a detailed and skeptical inquiry, we uncover significant inconsistencies that challenge Adam's credibility. This chapter underscores the complexities of discerning truth in sensitive and unusual situations and highlights the importance of thorough investigation.

Our investigation doesn't stop there. We expose the ethical dilemmas and painstaking efforts involved in handling false domestic violence reports, showcasing the meticulous evidence gathering that led to Adam's arrest. The twist comes when Adam interacts with a fake Facebook profile, leading to an unexpected and disturbing revelation. Finally, we recount a nail-biting undercover operation to catch an online predator, culminating in a tense arrest at a McDonald's. This episode sheds light on the dark reality of online predators and the relentless effort to bring them to justice, while also emphasizing the critical importance of distinguishing truth from deceit in law enforcement.

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Battling the relentless storm of PTSD is not just a personal struggle but a profound journey that many first responders face. In this gripping episode of the Murders to Music Podcast, I recount my battle with multiple PTSD diagnoses, initially shrugging them off as mere excuses. This episode underscores how a series of minor, negative experiences can silently accumulate, leading to a significant and often unrecognized transformation in one’s character and life. Drawing a powerful parallel with Casting Crowns' "Slow Fade," I bring to light the subtle yet profound impact of these experiences.

Facing the haunting memories of my career, I share an emotionally charged account of my mentor, John Watson, a dedicated police officer whose tragic murder on Christmas night marked a pivotal moment in my life. Alongside this heart-wrenching story, I delve into other harrowing incidents – from discovering a decomposed body to a perilous domestic violence situation in Alaska – each event unraveling the deep psychological toll of a career in law enforcement. The narrative also touches on the ethical dilemmas and internal conflicts that arise, revealing the complex emotional landscape of first responders.

But amid the darkness, there is a path to healing. I discuss the critical importance of recognizing and accepting PTSD, embracing therapy, and breaking down emotional barriers. Highlighting the transformative power of specialized therapy, scientific approaches to trauma, yoga, and meditation, this episode is a beacon of hope for those grappling with similar struggles. Tune in for a candid, heartfelt exploration of resilience, recovery, and the enduring strength of the human spirit. Stay connected for more impactful stories and expert insights in our upcoming episodes.

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