When Gavin and I met, he knew of God but didn't have a relationship with Him. Early on in our relationship, I told him that if we stayed together, we'd have to find a church together.

And that became something I felt deep down in my spirit.

Get to church.

I found one and knew it was our community before I got out of the car.

In January 2023, Gavin was so moved by our pastor that he left church and went straight to the baptismal fountain.

When he was diagnosed with cancer 10 months later, his faith ignited like never before—burning bright, steady, and unshakable.

But as his caregiver, watching him suffer and carrying the weight of our uncertain future, my faith felt more fragile than ever. As someone who grew up in church, God was always in my life. But as the spouse of a cancer patient, I couldn't see Him very well.

In this episode of the I Saved You. Now Do the Dishes Podcast, I explore the complicated, often unspoken truth about faith in crisis. What happens when one partner feels closer to God while the other struggles with doubt?

How do you navigate love, fear, and the messy middle ground of belief when life demands so much of you?

In this deeply personal episode of the I Saved You. Now Do The Dishes Podcast. I share the raw truth about learning to surrender—to the uncertainty, the pain, and the moments in between—while my husband battled through cancer treatment.

As his pain intensified and narcotics became a necessity, I had to navigate not just the timing of his pain management doses, his calorie intake, and all his treatment appointments but also the weight of my own emotions.

I accepted I was back in burnout during the third week of his cancer treatment. And the thing that always helped me express pent-up emotions was finding simple joy in everyday life.

This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt alone in the struggle and needed a reminder that surrender isn’t giving up—it’s releasing fear little by little and making room for grace.

In this episode of I Saved You. Now Do the Dishes Podcast, I step fully into my caregiver alter ego—the no-nonsense, get-it-done version of myself who makes sure my husband gets to the hospital after a brutal weekend of ER visits, pain, and exhaustion. I share what it takes to push through when everything feels impossible, the mental gymnastics of managing his care, and my first-ever visit to a pot dispensary in a desperate attempt to ease his suffering. It’s raw, real, and just another Monday in the world of caregiving and cancer.

I share several tips for caregivers and advocates in this one to shine a light on the number of services available for families in need of help.